Scared Bleep-less!
"Do one thing a day that scares you" ~ Elanor Roosevelt
I just saw a pic post of this quote while scrolling Facebook. Don't you loooove those Divinely intervened moments?
It's a 'moment' because I am scrolling to avoid practicing my speech for tomorrow. Now, like any good Yogini, I am totally aware of this. And I laughed out loud when I opened to that post.
The moment I said 'yes' to doing this speech I knew I was definitely going to have to dive a lot deeper than my comfort zone. There has been a message I have been crafting and feeling for some time but have not had the opportunity to bring it to life, and this was my chance.
What I didn't know was that in order to birth my message I was going to have revisit some of my most heart breaking and vulnerable moments.
What it has gifted me with though is the ability to see how those moments have shaped me for this one to come. Without them I would not be who I am today.
I only feel stronger and more empowered by seeing how I truly have turned my wounds in to wisdom, and eventually in to my 'work' ~ or what I feel is my dharma in this life. All the experiences Divinely crafted to lead me here and to this day.
This speaking opportunity, and the practice of Yoga, is also letting me see where there is still work that needs to be done.
The Five Kleshas have shown up throughout this process. And here's the thing, whether you are a Yoga teacher, practitioner, mystic, Saint, or otherwise, this is life. It doesn't stop so every moment in this life is an opportunity to practice.
So I was ignorant in to what I was getting myself into....
~ Klesha #1 (Ignorance)
I never used to be 'big' on asking for help, but have come to love it! So with some coaching and support, dedicating lot's of time to my Yoga practice and discovering my message, I became wise to the process and what it looks like for me.
My ego continually wants to get in the way of my Self convinced 'we' are not good enough, articulate enough, and that 'we' will fail.
~ Kelsha #2 (Ego)
Thankfully I know her voice well! I am totally aware when she shows up and why, so I can move on and up, connect beyond her, and stay open and knowing of my abilities, gifts, and how to quiet her.
I have become aware of moments where I practice (even though I already have that day), eat,
meet girlfriends, go grocery shopping.... well everything I love even though I know I need to be working on the speech
~Klesha #3 (Attachment to Pleasure)
Catching myself in the act, or often before it now, I no longer react, maybe by beating myself up over it. The discipline of a Yoga practice has made discipline in other areas come easier, and eventually knowing more and quieting the ego I understood the balance between finding time to work on it and enjoy life's offerings. I have dedicated an hour a day to this project for the last month.
Well as mentioned at the beginning of this blog, Facebook lol!
~ Klesha #4 (Avoidance)
I have been aware of every single moment in the past month where I have avoided it, and I have been tailoring my practice around it ~ getting in to and holding deeply uncomfortable poses for longer amounts of time than I normally do. Each time I notice myself avoiding working on it, I also notice that it passes and find myself working on it or practicing speaking it within minutes. The quiet voice of Self that bubbles up from within to say 'Hey so I love ya but get to work or else Ego might be right..." I still dislike being wrong so I get to work ;)
I have felt scared Bleep-less
~Klesha #5 (Fear of Death)
So I know that I won't die giving this speech but there's still fear.
So why the fear?
Well, as only a Yogini would say, that's been the fun part!
I often put myself in situations, experiences, or take opportunities that make me scared or uncomfortable because we often prefer the familiar rather than the unknown. Cultivating fearlessness when possible helps us face the unknown. Ego's and samskara's can bury our deepest fears under piles of self-limiting beliefs and patterns. Yoga can help us discover fearlessness, not only by tolerating unpleasant physical sensations, but by getting stronger mentally so we can delve in to the unknown without resorting back to our 'comfort zone' or the comfort of the known.
I have been inverting a lot this past month. It happened naturally and organically in my practice and I realized it was to help me face my fears, push me outside my comfort zone physically and watch how I handle it.
'He who has overcome his fears will truly be free." ~ Aristotle
It takes patience, truth, awareness, and love for yourself to make changes, to move past fear, and discover who and what awaits underneath it.
Then there will be a time when you think you are done and you have overcome....
And then you will begin again!
I am offering up all the hard work now knowing that she if she is cleaver enough to show up on Facebook then she will be there with me tomorrow.....
Find out more about Megan and her teachings at www.megancampbell.ca
I just saw a pic post of this quote while scrolling Facebook. Don't you loooove those Divinely intervened moments?
It's a 'moment' because I am scrolling to avoid practicing my speech for tomorrow. Now, like any good Yogini, I am totally aware of this. And I laughed out loud when I opened to that post.
The moment I said 'yes' to doing this speech I knew I was definitely going to have to dive a lot deeper than my comfort zone. There has been a message I have been crafting and feeling for some time but have not had the opportunity to bring it to life, and this was my chance.
What I didn't know was that in order to birth my message I was going to have revisit some of my most heart breaking and vulnerable moments.
What it has gifted me with though is the ability to see how those moments have shaped me for this one to come. Without them I would not be who I am today.
I only feel stronger and more empowered by seeing how I truly have turned my wounds in to wisdom, and eventually in to my 'work' ~ or what I feel is my dharma in this life. All the experiences Divinely crafted to lead me here and to this day.
This speaking opportunity, and the practice of Yoga, is also letting me see where there is still work that needs to be done.
The Five Kleshas have shown up throughout this process. And here's the thing, whether you are a Yoga teacher, practitioner, mystic, Saint, or otherwise, this is life. It doesn't stop so every moment in this life is an opportunity to practice.
So I was ignorant in to what I was getting myself into....
~ Klesha #1 (Ignorance)
I never used to be 'big' on asking for help, but have come to love it! So with some coaching and support, dedicating lot's of time to my Yoga practice and discovering my message, I became wise to the process and what it looks like for me.
My ego continually wants to get in the way of my Self convinced 'we' are not good enough, articulate enough, and that 'we' will fail.
~ Kelsha #2 (Ego)
Thankfully I know her voice well! I am totally aware when she shows up and why, so I can move on and up, connect beyond her, and stay open and knowing of my abilities, gifts, and how to quiet her.
I have become aware of moments where I practice (even though I already have that day), eat,
meet girlfriends, go grocery shopping.... well everything I love even though I know I need to be working on the speech
~Klesha #3 (Attachment to Pleasure)
Catching myself in the act, or often before it now, I no longer react, maybe by beating myself up over it. The discipline of a Yoga practice has made discipline in other areas come easier, and eventually knowing more and quieting the ego I understood the balance between finding time to work on it and enjoy life's offerings. I have dedicated an hour a day to this project for the last month.
Well as mentioned at the beginning of this blog, Facebook lol!
~ Klesha #4 (Avoidance)
I have been aware of every single moment in the past month where I have avoided it, and I have been tailoring my practice around it ~ getting in to and holding deeply uncomfortable poses for longer amounts of time than I normally do. Each time I notice myself avoiding working on it, I also notice that it passes and find myself working on it or practicing speaking it within minutes. The quiet voice of Self that bubbles up from within to say 'Hey so I love ya but get to work or else Ego might be right..." I still dislike being wrong so I get to work ;)
I have felt scared Bleep-less
~Klesha #5 (Fear of Death)
So I know that I won't die giving this speech but there's still fear.
So why the fear?
Well, as only a Yogini would say, that's been the fun part!
I often put myself in situations, experiences, or take opportunities that make me scared or uncomfortable because we often prefer the familiar rather than the unknown. Cultivating fearlessness when possible helps us face the unknown. Ego's and samskara's can bury our deepest fears under piles of self-limiting beliefs and patterns. Yoga can help us discover fearlessness, not only by tolerating unpleasant physical sensations, but by getting stronger mentally so we can delve in to the unknown without resorting back to our 'comfort zone' or the comfort of the known.
I have been inverting a lot this past month. It happened naturally and organically in my practice and I realized it was to help me face my fears, push me outside my comfort zone physically and watch how I handle it.
'He who has overcome his fears will truly be free." ~ Aristotle
It takes patience, truth, awareness, and love for yourself to make changes, to move past fear, and discover who and what awaits underneath it.
Then there will be a time when you think you are done and you have overcome....
And then you will begin again!
I am offering up all the hard work now knowing that she if she is cleaver enough to show up on Facebook then she will be there with me tomorrow.....
Find out more about Megan and her teachings at www.megancampbell.ca
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